People In My Life

I'm feeling a need to be around people.
I miss people.
I want to talk to people.
And yet, when I'm around them, I usually feel shy, or unwanted.

Lately the people in my life has really been changing dramatically from month to month. And this has been difficult for me because I'm someone who doesn't like change very much.

Lots of people, keep leaving, and sure, God tends to fill in the gaps and bring someone new into my life, but I hate that because I'm so shy! By the time I feel comfortable with someone and finally open up to them...they seem to come to a time in their lives where they need to move on or leave.

And then I get to start the process all over again. :(


But lately...I've really been missing some people. Mostly because of CIY. There were a lot of people who came last year, that I missed having there this year.

Shey Jones use to be a good friend of mine..but after a short few months of talking and hanging out, we just stopped. He went one way, I went the other I guess. And I really miss him.

Dyelawn actually inspired this note, because I seen on my last post he'd commented on it at the end of last month telling me to update. lol. He was probably the first person other than my two friends at the church to try to make me feel comfortable and welcomed there. And I owe him a lot for that. But he's since then made the decision to move to south carolina. And I miss having him at church to make me smile, or at CIY to make me laugh. :)

Ben Potter and Dusty Henderson weren't super close to me...I mean, they knew my brother, so they're friendly, and they have come to some bible studies and helped answer a lot of questions for me. But again, they're just people who could easily make me smile, listen to the tough stuff, and entertain me at CIY. :)

Ryan Sharp is someone who was most definatly there for me in a very hard point in my life. He was the only person who understood what I was going through and was more than willing to just listen, and encourgage me constantly so I could get through it. And it was tough...a lot of people just didn't know what to do for me anymore or what to say, and somehow, he figured it out and knew how to make me smile no matter how depressed I was. But over the summer he's gotten a new job so his work schedule doesn't allow him to come to church anymore, so I hardly ever get to see him or talk to him. Though when he does slip into church I love talking to him and bothering him for a good hour :) I most definatly miss him.

I miss heather hula too. We ran track together, and last year she played volleyball with me. She's such a sweetheart, and I'm gonna miss her 110%. She's going off to college, and I haven't seen her all summer. When you're around heather, everything is funny, everything is light, and you can most definatly relax. I really miss her.

I miss Nessa too. It's not that she's too far away, but she's in springfield now, so she doesn't get to church too often. And she was always fun to talk to also. And an easy smile. :)

I could say I miss Marilyn, but after CIY she's started to show up more and more at church, and I believe she's even bringing a message soon, so it's nice to have her sneaking back into my life.



But as I said before...God is kind enough to bring people into my life to fill in those gaps.

At first, I turned to other aquaintences, and just started to bother them more :) People like Randell Boggs, and Tyler Boggs. Other times, it was the people above that filled the gaps.

First I talked to dylan..then he kinda left, so then I talked to ben some and dusty..then they disapeared for a while...and soon ryan came into the picture...so on and so forth.

Lately a new face has crept into my life, his name is Cody Devers, and this kid is high entertaining :)

He's probably one of the first and few people who has spent a good chunk of time with me...and still walks over to say hello to me at church. (Usually after a bit I have to chase down people before they can run away from me. lol)

Oh! Not to forget my good friend Josh Burchell! He's soooo amazing! We're like...best friends man. (I'm going to be his 'best man' at his wedding next summer)

And a lot of old friends that I tend to drift in and away from throughout the months tend to work their way into my life just when I need them: Sara Spoering, Brittany Canole, Ryan Crouch, Tayla Cooper to name a few :)


And if all else fails...I've always got my sister :) Who is and shall remain my bestest buddy.




Anyways...this is a chunk of the stuff playing on my heart right now... I hope I didn't bore you too much. But these people have meant so much to me in the past couple years, and I had to give a shout out. :)